Never

I never thought i'd be so fucking lost. No direction, nothing in front of me.
The last few days have been the worst of my life, losing everything ive come to love in a few minutes. Lately i've been hit hard with everything, the girl wants nothing to do with me now. I have no direction in life, i'm almost fucking 20 and i dunno what i'm doing.

I'm quite sick if being called a failure, a waste of space. I'm trying my best to be somebody i'm not.
I'm changing and it's not fun.
I have a big problem with alcohol and drugs atm. If anything gets hard i turn to them.

All i need is someone to be there, to talk to me. I hate being alone.
I still have nothing ):